2012 Goals/Resolutions

- Hello 2012!! 

I know I had just written my last post of 2011 on the 31st of December and I am already back with a new updated Talk Booster for you lovelies! It only makes sense though, since it's a new year with a brand new fresh start! So this post isn't really going to be all deep and detailed like my other ones just to be straight to the point in case you were looking for that. This is post is more about resolutions for 2012 that I have for myself. I was actually debating on whether or not I should share this or not and I decided to just go about sharing it. Why? Because everyone makes them number one and secondly was something more personally that rung in my head that I read in 2011 which makes sense which is to share. I am definitely not one to express things openly but also you never know who may be able to help you, or connect you, keep you on a straight path or even the fact of it makes you even more responsible for sharing. It makes you take more responsibility by sharing if that even makes a lot of sense? Well I am just going to get at it and tell me yours if you like! Happy New Year - 2012!! 

- Share my blog with people (I know there is this thing called the internet but there is also people in my life that have no idea. It's not that I am embarrassed or anything it's just I am not the type who likes to be center of attention for things that I find as a hobby, fun or normal. Where as to others it may be exciting or even OMG!! Best way I can express it in detail or else this will be even longer.)

- BLOG, BLOG, BLOG! (I really want to work more and more on my blog this year. I know last year I said I wanted to be but I just never followed through, so this is a must. I am going to just start off small as to post once a week for sure. I also want to really really work on doing proper outfit of the day looks most definitely.)

- Eat Healthy!! (I was doing so good before along with exercising and I just stopped because I became really ill but I really want to work on this and keep it going strong. I want to stop spending unnecessary money on fast food and things that I could make myself. On the plus side saves A LOT of money for me as well.)

- Get back into exercising to be more toned (It also is a great way to calm my mind from racing thoughts number one. second when I am getting my body to what I want to achieve it makes me feel great about myself. third reason why this is my goal is because I don't feel that great about my body to be honest.)

- Be more communicative, direct, speak what's on my mind and stick up for myself. (I know that's a lot in one but they all pretty well tie in together really for communication. Why this is my goal is because I know before I was super shy, closed off to people or hid things about myself because I didn't feel the need to share things. Over 2011 I have learnt a lot and have learnt to become more open, share and make interactions/relationships more deeper than the surface things I allowed to be or didn't. I definitely lacked giving anything of myself to others and really it's unfair especially when someone gives all of themselves to you.)

- to learn another language!! I have been wanting to achieve this forever and ever. I mean since I was in elementary, no joke! I am going to be serious and actually learn a language along with take it seriously. I think it's important to know another language in life besides your main one which mine is English. My choice is Spanish as my choice of language to learn. Why? Because I know I have people to correct me, help me and I kind of already had been studying it previously and picked it up quick but lost it all because I never kept practicing it. If you don't use it, you lose it, right! I also have wanted to learn German, Norwegian as well but I am going to focus on one language and master that first instead of getting ahead of myself with multiple languages.) 

- Travel + have FUn & enjoy life! (My destination of travel choice to be more specific on this goal is actually to go to London, England! My dream travel place for the last year or two and so I would love to make this goal happen! I know most people would say New York City which I love but I have been there numerous times and have family there, so for me it's different than those people who live in Europe. I just think it would be so fun, maybe even a culture shock a bit or maybe even a lot. I think it would be absolutely incredibly amazing, period. I can't explain it any more than that. Another place I forgot that is included as well is SPAIN, BARCELONA! It looks so incredibly beautiful and amazing.) 

- READ! (Since not being in school for a little bit now I feel like I have nothing valuable when it comes to learning. When you're in school you are constantly learning and up to date with your grammar, spelling, words, definition, knowledge etc. but when I'm not in school there's really nothing. I understand there is the internet and I do research stuff and whatnot but I feel reading expands your mind and imagination to more than what it already is. On top of this I have a pile of books I have which have not been touched that I really should read instead of buying more books and reading those first.)

- Figure out my school situation -- college (As to narrow it down to the final one school and attend! Pretty straight-forward and simple explanation.)

- learn guitar! (I have been wanting to learn this since I was either in grade 11 or 12. It would make sense to learn especially after having a guitar but it's just sitting there not being used. I think learning an instrument is an amazing opportunity.)

- sew quilts (More so specifically the one that is about done but I just have not gotten to finishing it for a really long time now. I feel like it's been 2 years or something, so I must complete that. Not only that I have to complete another one as a special surprise gift I had planned and haven't not even gotten to it, also a must to complete.)

I think this is pretty much it for my 2012 Goals that I have set out for myself but I am sure there are other ones as well but these are the main things that I can think of and have written down. 

I want to leave this post with this verse : Everything is possible for the person who believes. - mark 9:23

Another thing that I want to emphasize on is keep being positive and any things possible, nothing is impossible. You know why? Because it says right in the word I'm Possible! so I thought I would share that and hope all the goals you have set and made for yourself come into fruition and along with this year is a great year with lots of fun and amazingly great energy! 

xo. pixie dust kisses `


(I know I wrote this in my Talk Booster section but I thought I would include it here right away because makes sense to right away.) 

Talk Booster - Last of 2011 (Dec.31st)

The last Day of 2011 and what year it had been!

There are so many blog posts and things that are last minute kinda in a way to make this new year start fresh and beautiful, like an angelic bright shining moon shining down upon ones face. It's the last moment to speak all your 2011 thoughts and move forward to a excitable, fresh year. It's a year to make or start new changes and go about new obstacles, tasks etc. It's about keeping the things you found work and leaving behind the things that didn't work. It's also another year to figure out new things and explore, be adventurous along with spice up a little or a whole lot of fun! It's a new year to meet new people and learn new things and shine the best you that you can. It's also about moving up front in focus to what you never allowed yourself to in 2011. 2012 is the year, to let yourself be you and the best you that you ever have never allowed anyone to fully see. It's about being vulnerable but still keeping your boundaries. It's about taking risks and sometimes just jumping full force but sometimes it also takes a little bit of down time to recognize and figure out. The most important thing of all is to be thankful, thankful for all that had happened in 2011 whether good or bad. It's about thanking the things or people that life through your way. 2012 is about starting fresh and being determined to chasing after those goals, not walk but run into completing them and making new ones. It's about giving yourself a challenge to fulfil for a new year, so you don't feel stuck into the pasts or that of 2011. It's about making your life LOUD, FUN and letting this charmed life on earth be a gift not taken for granted but treasured with all your heart and soul. Life give you what you ask, it's all about your approach.. be negative then you get the negative surrounded into your life. Chose to be positive and life gives you many treasures that you never let yourself fully see. What you ask for is what you receive, so ask for the greatest treasure of all the gift of simplicity. It's that which makes you realize and appreciate life. It gives you a bright beautiful light into your soul knowing the fact you are grateful, calm and at peace. 

- LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, SO LIVE IT LIKE IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING & TREASURE IT LIKE IT'S GOLD. ALLOW THOSE YOU LOVE TO FULLY SEE YOU VULNERABLY BECAUSE INSIDE IS A BEAUTIFUL, INTELLIGENT, LOVING, HEART WARMING MIRACLE WAITING TO FLY OUTSIDE THE BAR DOORS to AMAZING LIGHT OF TRUE BEAUTIFUL UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. SO TREASURE THAT AND YOURSELF. BELIEVE, INSPIRE & TREASURE. <3

As for myself I wanted to end this with my 2011 thankful thoughts floating around. 

* I am thankful for my family, without a doubt. I honestly can say right now as I sit here and type this I don't know where I would be today. I don't know if I would have even came as far as I did this year. I am so appreciative for the relationships that I have allowed to become more than what I have ever allowed myself to feel or be apart of.

* I am grateful for all the obstacles and challenges that came my way because even though they may have been hard I learnt a lot. I learnt a lot not only of the situation but of myself.

* I am grateful for life even though I honestly can say I never really have been in the past to be completely honest.

* I am utterly thankful for the friendship that I allowed myself to gain with my cousin because I don't know where I honestly would be, truthfully. He is not only my cousin but he is also like a brother to me that I never had but always wanted. He has had my back so much this year and I never thought in a millions I would find someone who's opinion I value as much as I do his. He is genuinely kind hearted, intelligent to the t in smart. He is always looking out for you and your well being for sure. The most, best part of him that I admire is he's truthfulness. It's not sugar-coated it's the plain truth the way you see it in front of your eyes and I love that aspect. I love it because I know that I have he's honest opinion which I value very much. I am absolutely grateful for him in my life.

* I am unexplainable-y grateful for the 4 strong friendships that have remained, reformed or even become in my life. I am very thankful for them because I know, no matter what that friendship is always there. These few I know have been here for a long while and have not left my side even if we don't see each other regularly because of life's busy ways. They're still always in my daily thoughts as I roam lives beautiful days. They get me each in their own way and love the parts of me that they love because they genuinely like me for me. I know it has taken me a long long road to finally find the best of friendships but I have definitely found them and cherish them deeply. These 4 people literally make me excited each and every time I get to see them! They make the inside of my soul light up as bright as the California sun on a hot day. They are each different, unique, intelligent and beautiful in there own way and I will continue to love and treasure them for the way they're and even as they change and evolve through life. They make my life that much brighter & lighter. They are also the piece to the best part of me.

* I am thankful for the opportunity of allowing myself to be able to let someone 'see into me' with flaws and all. The best and worst parts that not everybody knows or see. I am thankful because I have made progress in life in the utmost unimaginable ways ever. I have become more than I have ever allowed myself to see, believe or let be and because of that I am truly grateful for the guidance of this person. Sometimes some people see miracles inside another person better than you can of your own self. 

* I am truly grateful for My littlest cutest sweetie pie niece!! I lOVE her to pumpkin pie, ice cream sprinkle pieces! She is the most adorable, precious gift ever. She just makes me smile and lights up my sky. She's the most joyous and energetic little daisy walking in my life right now. Her hugs are the best along with her smile and cute laugh! Her innocence is what makes life shine, no matter what kind of day I've had. 

* I am undoubtedly thankful for my parents; I know life hasn't always been this way but as life moves forward I become to see things in a whole new light. Sometimes life doesn't give the best situations but it gives the best lessons. It gives you things in a whole new perspective as to what I previously had allowed myself to think or believe. It makes you not take certain things for granted even though it has happened a way in which you never wanted. Some times in life I have learned life isn't always greener on the other side. 

* Another person that is very smart that is part of my life is 'a' she is just so smart, like a jar of cookies. A little or a whole lot of hyper sometimes but it just wouldn't be the same without the noise if it was constantly completely utter silence. Definitely a bright shining future ahead for sure. 

* The best part of my life that I am really happy and joyful for is all the most positive intellects that have been part of or walked into my life through life's gracious journeys that I have travelled. It is the best part for me because it makes me have a stable balance not one wobbling on one foot in front of the other unbalanced, wondering or worrying of unnecessary things. It's the best part of 2011 that I can carry forward into 2012 because I know I have allowed the things that I can change change. It's the best part because those I have come across that are this way make me want to be an even better person. They make miracles want to happen in the pupils of my eyes that spark as bright as fireworks on a dark night.

I am thankful over all in general for every little thing but more so the simple little things. The grand gestures sure but it's the little things that makes my heart skip a floating daisy beat. 

- Hello 2012 and goodbye 2011, it was a great run but 2012 is to be even better! 

xo. pixie dust kisses `

Talk Booster - Dec. 5th

Decisions, life is full of them. They are always standing there right in front of you waiting for your reply. Sometimes, they can be pretty simple, other times they can be pretty hard or other times the choices you chose to make can be irrational and suffer consequences that the eyes don't meet at the time. 

Some times in life you start to notice things beginning to happen so fast and becoming completed all of a sudden. It kind of startles you and makes you wonder why everything is happening at this speed and where's all the time that 'I' still need to process some things going to? Then you, one day are sitting there pondering  over the past 6 months that went by and you never really noticed that much of a significant change. Well so you think or tell yourself, but most likely you are looking for something BIG, GRAND that STANDS OUT and makes your heart ring a fast beat. Instead it's the subtle, simple, yet sweet things then get under minded and undeniably motioned out of focus because it doesn't seem that important. When you think about it all, it's those little things that kick the grand gestures to the curb. They have something hidden, yet beautiful strung together for you that you have to be willing to find. 

What we are all looking for at times may be hard to find or at other times it's meeting us dead within our eyes. It's the case of us being willing to take a risk to figure it all out or to lead us on a path that may be wrong with a bend-y curvy road. However Some of us are just sitting and waiting for a sign, like a hopeless star struck shooting star flashing across the sky whenever it feels like at any given time. I think for the most part it's on us, it's on us to not just sit around and wait for certain things to come or to wonder. The one risk we are faced with and having a hard time deciding on could be the one that makes or breaks you. It could be a pivadolent moment to define everything that you've ever dreamed of happening in your life time. It could be the undoubted success that no one else can see, it could be your ultimate passion that runs through your veins that lets you live out your very beautiful, up all night, do everything you can but you still think you can do more to make it even better than what appears as star studded front row ultimate red carpet glow. 

It's the letting yourself grow, find out who you are, what you are capable of, what you able to leave behind and what you are willing to confront and move on to present-future time that helps give life a positive spin. It can change everything, it is your ultimate control, it is in your hands whether or not you want to live in the past or worry about the future and leave behind the present that's happening right here in time. 

I get that we can find ourselves questioning.. why? how is it suppose to fall together? when is it going to come about? It can simply feel like everything is happening all too soon too quick. There can be so many decisions and things that cross our minds.. it can be as simple as school, work, family, friends, self etc. The decisions can tear us apart inside or they can release a fire spark waiting to explode up high, high, high like fireworks in the dark sky night. 

It's those times when you need a little white winter wonderland free range full of snow and a little record machine car playing a sentimental road song that just flows. [insert your song] mine at this moment would be Michelle Branch's new single "Loud MUSIC" It makes me get lost deep into thinking, analyzing, yet also provokes the souls deep pondering that rest on the mind but is waiting to be fully released. 

My life's pondering at this moment are what give me hope but at the same time keep me guessing along with allow me to seek the undeniable truth and beauty that is with held in every thought circulating my minds hemisphere. It gives the ability to open space for something new, beautiful, crazy, wild, fun and unpredictable to store screaming adventure unlike any heard of previous experiences had before. 

Life is about finding your happiness, your passion, your love and creating your own family. It's about giving everything you have inside of you like a record machine filled with songs. It's about giving, showing respect; it's about loyalty, honesty and above all it's about giving the truth down to the bare even if you think they can't handle it. The truth may hurt at the time but ultimately down the long run it will win over hearts. You may not see it in another soul, eyes or even get to witness but time will reveal it it's self to you in some way. 

- The truth wins, every time and gets you every time just like decisions that string along down a clothes line. It doesn't jade you, it simply speaks the truth and it will speak it in silence but if you can't ultimately hear, it will speak it loud and clear like rolling stones playing on vinyl crystal clear during a fireworks show.

xo. pixie dust kisses ` 

Talk Booster - May 2011

Life is about being unique, different, yourself - as in completely raw and real nothing fake. It's about loving and treating yourself with respect. Well having those you also need to have a positive outlook as well as thoughts. It's what gets you the things that you want and need in your life. It's you that makes your life, nobody else. It's the dreams, desires, hopes, wishes and complications along with sacrifices that make life. The challenges make are not there to hold and bind you it's there to give you a lesson as well as that you have the ability to overcome it and that is why it is handed to you.

You may think obstacles are there to stop you and not make you achieve the things you are intending to. It isn't the case if you are focused and have a positive mind set then you can accomplish anything your little hear and mind desire. I think the main thing in life that makes things happen is having belief and believing in luck. You make those two on your own, yet maybe chance or pure luck just happens to some of us as we like to think or maybe just maybe we created it ourselves. We created it by imagining the impossible possible! I think you have to look really hard at the word impossible, there is a positive statement within it, all it takes is you to break it down .. I'M POSSIBLE! I think that should be something inspiring and get you along your way into a direction another than negative thoughts and thinking that bound with the word in it's negative context.

Life is about taking risks, it's about enjoying it to the fullest and not being afraid. It's about finding something you love and are passionate about. It's about finding your first love and always remembering even far down the road. It's about breaking down the barriers, so that you are able to feel everything completely, feel all the emotions inside of use. The emotions of joy, happiness, pain, sadness and everything else in between. Those are the things that get us through things and by when we feel it all by trying to numb certain aspects you're not. You're really numbing everything and when you do that you lose the feeling of joy and happiness that is inside wanting to be explored and shared.

Life is about being vulnerable and just allowing others to accept us for the way we are and if they can't then they can't we just have to move onto the next person. Everyone is a beautiful rose allowed to blossom and grow to the full potential that is waiting right in front of there toes. Sometimes we think we can keep one foot behind well having one foot go forward to have the best of both worlds but really it doesn't work that way. It's either you're in or you are completely out. Sometimes those risks are what gives us the hope, belief and luck that anything can truly happen and became possible. Sometimes in life there is no 3 strikes and you're out, sometimes there is only one and you either have to make a choice and take it or leave it. It may not be the right direction but along the journey you are bound to come to the right path you were looking for.

It may be harder but along the way, you are assured some valuable lessons and or the ability to let go and have fun. Life's about accepting yourself to be the best you are for you not for anyone else and not for the standards of society. The standards that need to be measured up are those of your own and yes people will give you their opinion or advice but at the end of the day it is your choice in what you chose to do. You make the way you life comes about, so do the unexpected, take risks, believe and love with everything you've got whole-heartedly and do everything whole-heartedly. Never give only half-heartedness into something because when you do that is when you strip away the things you truly want and that's not what life's about.

The real reason for life is to find joy in the simple things because the simple things are what make our life extraordinary. We are what make us the cup of tea we want and those that come across us will be attracted to us just by allowing yourself to evolve and having like-minded values and beliefs.

signed,
BRIGHTLIGHTS `

Talk Booster - April 2011

Wow, so where do I begin here and with this Talk Booster? I kind of have an idea that's been toppling my mind lately and recently. First, I must say that I am sorry for not having done one of these sooner! I know it has been a couple months since I have done this but I will try to update this more often. I'm hoping twice a month at the least if not once. But, anyhow to continue on to this addition to all the other additions.

I think every now and again we need to 'set fire to the rain' to renew ourselves, change, grow and open ourselves up to love along with the possibilities of getting hurt. We need this in order to recognize the abilities inside of us we lack to see but that of which others see in us. Closing ourselves off from these things just allows for the walls to continually get stronger day by day which then deepens us into the ground even more than before and makes getting out a struggle. A [struggle] but possible!

Once you allow yourself to recognize the beautiful gift of loving and the ability it has to over power everything you didn't allow it to touch before, it's a wonderful miracle. Letting love come in slowly to reformat it's positive energy to dispose of the negativity is the best thing you could ever allow yourself to do. When you allow love to do what it does best, miracles transform in front of your eyes that like you wouldn't believe. I think that is just the beginning though, it gives you the opportunity to realize what is not working for you in life in the negative department. For each person it could be anything, from negative thoughts, allowing people to abuse you, take advantage of you or not giving yourself the full self-worth that is worthy for the beautiful person that you are, just to name a few things.

Life can be difficult at times but who said life was suppose to be easy and bearable? The challenges are what make you the wonderful, sweet delicate flower blossoming into the full potential possible to achieve. However, the main thing that's most important in life is to try and maintain a balance to the best possible degree you can. I know there's going to be days or times when it just won't work that way which is okay because there is circumstances out of our control that unbalance us and our life. To never have a balance or boundaries in life or ever is when you're lost and don't fully have a sense of how much is too much? how much is enough to deal with until you allow yourself to break? The critical thing to being strong and not weak is having boundaries.

Boundaries is the thing that gives you the strength to do what you want and what you feel is right for you. Everybody has a right and if you allow people to abuse you and take advantage of you, it's like giving yourself away for free and getting nothing in return. But if you've never been brought up to have those values instilled within you then you wouldn't really have a full clue how to separate certain things. You kind of allow yourself to have everything clash into one category and it's all the same in everything in life which can be a not so good thing. Because instead of confronting things, you're probably more likely to avoid them, allow them to happen even though you don't feel good about it or push things away etc. I just feel that makes you lack the love you're fully capable of receiving all because you try to be strong, independent and shut out the possibilities that could conform just by being open.

You don't deserve to be treated less than your self-worth you have of your self. You know why you don't deserve to be mistreated? Because you're beautiful, wonderful, kind, caring, smart, independent and have the full potential to go as far as you can in this amazing life! You are unique and you for a reason, do you and be you. The ones who truly care will be there for you and understand. They will give the unconditional love that you never allowed from them to come in even though they continuously gave it, you just chose to reject it. You will begin to realize why everything was wrong and everything is now beautiful and feels so right.

The leading thought to leave from this is not to allow yourself to be abuse in any way or form. Don't let people belittle you and make you feel so small, don't let them have the gratitude of knowing you allowed them to win. A real true friend would never make you feel degraded and worthless for any reason.. and I mean any. Even if you break apart and start to talk again it will NEVER be the same it was the first time, it won't be that way because everything may still leak through in the back of your mind when you realize the people who truly cared and still care for you.

The ones who saw the brightest little sparkle shine when you never could understand why, those are the ones to love hard back but don't be so hard on. The ones who you need to be hard on are the ones who mistreat you and make you feel guilty for no reason or allow you to become a doormat. This person is not you and will not be you anymore, you will allow yourself to receive the best you deserve and nothing lower of the standards you set. Never, never lower them ever for no one or no reason and don't allow people to let you think your standards are to high because if they were low then you would be treated like dirt. Never settle for less than you deserve, especially when you know you can do so much better, so much better than second best. Be positive, respectful, allow love to flow through, give love and take risks. Be on top of the world!


signed,
BRIGHTLIGHTS `

Talk Booster - January 1st, 2010

So it's a new year and a lot of new experiences and challenges are awaiting us all to take place. I think for the most of us the new year is that of change.

CHANGE : To alter; to make different; to cause to pass from one state to another; as, to change the position, character, or appearance of a thing; to change the countenance. To alter by substituting something else for, or by giving up for something else.

It's a way to leave the past in the past and focus on the present that gives you the future you shall receive by the actions of now. It's a chance to turn over an old leave and be present to a new one. It's about changing habits, recognizing mistakes and faults. It's about making corrections or trying again. It's about accepting everything that you haven't allowed yourself because of fear of the unknown or letting your mind think you're not good enough. It's about letting go of the negativity and focusing solely on the positive and surrounding yourself with positive liked mind people who believe in the same things that you yourself believe in.

It's about making new goals to tackle, dreaming up new dreams to aim for and trying new things you never let yourself try. Life is full of excitement and now it's your turn to live it out fully. Where ever you're going is a mystery and you don't know the great places it's going to take you and that's the whole point. The point is to let the light take over and shine the unexpected of you. Stop worrying and just let everything go, let your attention shift to the new.

This new year around let your desires fully come true and form. Let the love you push away and keep at a distance become apart of you. Let taking risks gain you everything you never thought imagined that will happen. Let the universe get the best of you, the rawest of you, the beauty of you and the laughter of you that you chose not to expose.

Allow yourself to fully express whatever it is you feel inside instead of holding back. Don't let yourself over-think, over-analyze, stress or assume the worst when more than likely it isn't the case, you're just allowing yourself to imagine it will be that case and your body + mind just ends up all worked up for nothing.

This season find you if you're the type to always do for others but not for yourself. However, if you're the type who only does for themselves change that by helping this new year. Give them the help they'd least expect it because trust me you'll definitely make someones day or put a smile on there face.

Find the person you are and want to be. Allow yourself to let go and just be imperfectly freely you without worrying the opinions of others. It's about you now, it's about figuring out what everybody else sees that you are unable to allow yourself to see.

The last thing that I need to say it to always, always, always BELIEVE in yourself no matter what. Never let that aspect of yourself go because it goes hand in hand with determination but also WILL. You have those you've got everything you need to achieve the unattainable that other people tell you or you make yourself believe.

So don't worry about where your going.. just enjoy the ride and really really live life. Live it to the fullest possible potential that you can. ;)

signed, BRIGHTLIGHTS

Talk Booster - October 2010

So, I've been putting this off and off and off and was going to put it off again tonight but I was like no I have to do this! However, yaaay for a recent blog post! I am slowly managing to make more regular posts, hopefully that will work out. The main point of why I came on this specific portion of my blog to write is a new updated booster!! Geeehz! has it been forever that I managed to post a new one and that's not good... thumbs waaay down for that! As for what I am going to write about now .. here?!

Sometimes in life our main goal is a goal that isn't related to us if that even makes any sense?! I think a lot of us aim to please people, be people pleasers and neglect our choices and what we want in our life or what we want to aim for etc. Don't get me wrong it's nice to help people and give a little extra of your time or whatnot at times but not to the point that you are making yourself suffer. I believe the last time we checked in with ourselves it is our life and whatever it is we like, eat, want, desire, dream and believe that's us. It makes us who we are and it gives us a unique personality that no one is could compare to or be.. it's a way to make a connection to our identity.

I believe now is the time to make changes that benefit you and the life you want to live. It's not about everyone else.. it's about you! The choices you make are going to affect you and the life you have to lead in the future, not anybody else, so do whatever it is you love, desire and believe. However, when you do those things make sure it's something that means something and gives you a feel within your heart that makes you feel good. Something that gives you the opporunity to be happy, feel good, compassionate, goal-oriented and just naturally flows in connection with who you are and what you love in life. Let it enable you to connect to people or discover yourself. Let the inner beauty that hides within show people the unexpected they never thought. Let yourself be discovered and let yourself discover you and the hidden talents that you may not even be aware of sport a potential you never knew.

I beleive also a lot of the changes that we do or the things we discover of ourselves include that we make changes and work on things that inflict us to the point they really don't benefit us at all. I definitely believe a good step to start is finding more people to surround yourself with that support you and the decisions you make even if they may not agree they still support you because it's what you want. I think it's important to have people like that because people that are negative or bring you down are not going to do you any justice really. They are just going to drag you down along with them and seriously who wants that? I don't think you do because I sure know I don't. I can so that is something I don't want because I have been through that and it is not fun at all and it's draining to your mind, body and soul. It's like a drug counteracting with another that wasn't suppose to be taking because it can cause a reaction either mild, dangerous or even deadly.

In periods of life you need to be the antidote and take yourself out or be the remedey to the poision related within your life. I for one can say have more postive people and people who support you helps your life out a lot. I believe you attain the things you truly want because these type of people support what you want and don't judge you etc. The ones who judge you and criticize you, do nothing for you, offer nothing for you and more than likely make you feel down, gulity, shamed or make you believe things that are not true of yourselfs. For example, when someone tells you something or gives you a compliment you down grade it because you don't think it's true.. cooome on now! I am telling you accept the compliment, it was given to you for a reason! This person sees something that sometimes in life or certain periods in our life we don't understand why certain people see certain things about us. You may not see it or understand it but eventually you will once you let yourself be surrounded with the right positive people!

Life is about being yourself, achieving what you want of yourself and don't neglect what the insides of your blessed little heart shines with. There is no reason to hide the beauty that's wanting to seek out, let yourself flow for you and not anyone else... who cares what other thinks. There opinions shouldn't affect you but by all means them interfering with you is really affecting them only and getting them nowhere where as you are moving at a steadily speed ahead to beautiful places, you probably never expected.

The whole main point and focus is be you, don't be afraid, ashamed or hide who you are to please others or whatnot. You are seriously beautiful as the suns warm rays and the city lights that shine across the night sky. You have a personality as unique as the traffic flow of every hour of each day that will never be the same to someone elses. You are as beautiful as the rapid street lights red, amber and green because they relate to your constant growth, change, and flow which you allow yourself to adapt to the possiblities being thrown. Also, those lights show you that the beauty within them have endless chances to change every possible second of your life to be better than what you are allowing it to be now. Those lights should give you a metaphoric answer to relate into your life your choices of what you can do [stop] [yield] [go] - nothing more nothing less just the simple standing right in front of you waiting for your answers to change your life one step at a time.

signed,

BRIGHTLIGHTS `

Talk Booster - supeeer old from July 2010 =(

I don't exactly no what this entry is going to come out as after I am all done writing but hopefully it's something that can be helpful? or perhaps maybe it's just me with something on my mind pondering back and forth that I wanted to spill out in words in a post since it's been on my mind for a long time now and I have no clue what to do with it kept inside of me.

Where to begin is the main question of it all, probably for anything in everyday life. Where do we begin for each task, thought, action, emotion etc. Sometimes, it seems as though there isn't any answers at the moment when we would like them or needed them or maybe there are, the message is just underlining. Perhaps it has to do with looking deep within or its simply the fact of knowing and not doing anything about it because we are unsure, scared, or the one person that somehow brings a smile to your face, you feel is going to walk away once everything is laid out in front of them of who you truly really are along with everything you've been through. It could just be the simple fact of they're never going to understand even if you wanted them to x's a zillion & infinity.

But that's the problem right there, thats the solution within its own self really if you come about it. It's has nothing to do with anything really other than being SCARED and for what? And why? Being scared is never going to get you anywhere, all that word describes is letting yourself be held back from something you want and you know you deserve. However, you don't think you deserve that so you distance yourself, thinking that it may be a better deal, but really it isn't. Only person suffering is yourself and the other person well, that's not exactly there problem if you push them away. But then again if they really care they'd at least make an attempt to fight for you to open up or to get you into there life at least. So I hope or at least would like to think, but then again maybe that's all wishful thinking? Or maybe it's not wishful thinking, perhaps it's the truth just the mixed thoughts of not being worthy or good enough take over the minds thought of frame to come to a conclusion such as that.

Pushing people away doesn't serve any justice because more than likely they are people who can challenge you in your life. Perhaps for the first time in a long time they are the ones who truly care about you and care enough to want to know whats going on with you. However, you chose not to because you're scared. Even more so than that, you don't think or understand why this could all be happening to you since you've never had that in your life necessarily. So, what maybe stuck inside your head is theres string attached to this so called offering that truly you deserve but can't see it that way. You let your self be blinded by things you don't allow yourself to see that others may see of you.

Sometimes, we question ourselves, because we don't understand what it is someone sees in us or how they see that when they don't fully know us. The question of How they could know such things runs across our mind trying to understand but we either can't or can but chose not to see ourselves necessarily in the way they think because to the things you may do for others is only natural & normal in your world to do and/or to be a certain way towards others. Meaning kind, helpful, listening ear, organized, polite, and the list could go on and on of good things that you are.

Simply the way someone has made a difference in your life just by making a splash of a smile appear upon yourself when you didn't plan on anything but to help them go through whatever lifes obstacles along with be a listening ear with advice. In the end of it all you felt something, you felt as though a piece of happiness could live within your life, you were challenged to the point it helped you improve and grow more as a person that you couldn't have fully done by yourself even if you truly wanted to. They gave you something, they gave you that push you needed or that happiness when you weren't expecting or looking for it. They're the reason when people would see you would notice your so happy because of one person that was capable of making a difference in your world when you least thought anything of it.

But in the end of it all you pull away, you keep your guard up, you let the happiness you felt slip away. You let it happen because of being scared, insecure, and unsure of what to allow your heart to deserve. You step back, yet still think about it wanting to have something you aren't willing to let your heart feel. The only thing left to do is scream out WHY? why am I allowing myself to go through this lockdown when really you want the person in your life as someone you could confine in. You want them to be the one person you are able to trust and know they'll always love you. I think if they encourage you and give you positive comments compared to the people who have been negative towards us in our life obviously they are a good addition to have in your life.

This entry really is a complete mess, all over the place thoughts, but really it's just the simple fact of taking a risk. Also allowing yourself to feel happy and challenged. It's allowing yourself to accept the love and positive energy without hestiation. It's about being okay, with accepting that someone truly cares for us and is willing to hear us out. It's about being okay with having someone to possibly tell a few secrets to or maybe even all. It's all about learning and sometimes learning means being left hurt which doesn't sound to grand, but maybe there suppose to treat us a lesson to become a better person or for the next person we come across to enjoy the better of us that has improved. It's about allowing your thoughts be opened up from the mind and not scared to show who you really are, because we all know we aren't people without no personality or opinion on things. Everybody has a personality and opinion on things. It's about letting you guard fall down and take the plunge for something your heart deep down wants but you're denying it access. For the finally conclusion it all comes down to not letting them think they may have done something wrong or that they may have lost something good they thought was worthy, beautiful, unqiuely amazing in ways that they see that you don't or chose not to allow yourself to see. Just simply cherish those who really make you happy instead of pushing them away when they want to be part of your life to make it better and make it full of happiness and laughter.

signed,

BRIGHTLIGHTS `

Talk Booster July 6/10

I know it's pretty late here on my end of the world. But I just wanted to write this before I got off from doing all that I have on my blog. I couldn't just leave this empty until tomorrow when I go to re-edit some more. I just wanted to talk and maybe possible give someone a boost, hope or give that one person who may be down some confidence. Or possibly this could just be a ramble to some really and not much help of any.

Everyone has dreams, ambitions and things in life that we need, must or want to accomplish. However, sometimes when it comes to things such as that nature we don't always have the support we would hope for. Sometimes, we just walk away with our heads way down then what they were before coming into contact with this person. Yes, there are people like this in this world and you can't always listen to them. Who are they to tell you who you are and what you are capable of? Sometimes, we listen to peoples opinions too much that we forget about what we truly want in our life and what would make us happy. We push our dreams, happiness, and life choices aside to suit someone elses life style, opinion, or to pursue someone elses dream that isn't even ours. When this begin to happens it begins to affect our life and the choices we make in life.

Other peoples thought and opinions shouldn't let your life choices afflict with what you need to accomplish or do to get to where you want to go. And yes, there are people who think because they have a higher rank in life they control you, or have the power to push you into a corner and your not allowed to stand up for yourself because that would be a mistake on your part. Honestly, people like that, don't have power over you even though they'd like to think so. They only way they have power over you is if you let them have power over you. Sometimes you just need to stand up and speak up for yourself or do achieve what it is that you want to achieve. It's also okay if you fail, as along as you try try try again then everything will be okay and work out the way its suppose to but thats only if you really want it and are willing to try again and not let some negative persons thoughts affect you. Along with you have to put in the effort to get what you want also. You can't just hope for it to fall straight on your lap because for the most part it doesn't work that way.

The whole justification of this all is...

1. be YOU

2. Achieve your DREAMS/AMBITIONS

3. be POSITIVE

4. put in the effort to accomplish what you want

5. surround yourself with positive people

6. make goals / set time limits to achieve them

7. try new things

8. laughter, be happy, enjoy life, experience, explore, let goo, be FREE.

9. be open-minded to things & take opporunities that you normally wouldn't

10. be who you are, want to be, achieve, hope, and along the way INSPIRE.

signed,

BRIGHTLIGHTS ♥

LOOVEE

What is LOVE? The answer to this question is one I cannot describe or explain, since I have not experienced it in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. But love from the degree of friendships, family, etc. I can relate to. I think the love of family for me in my case outweighs the love of friendships. You begin to realize things... things from family members that you didn't bother to put any interest into noticing, things you never truly showed you cared about before. Sometimes it is the option of death, birth, unconventional circumstances that unexpectedly arise in life that wake you up to make a change in life until its too late. It's the love around you that you allow yourself to surround about that gives you hope and belief that a deeper connection that can mess you up either for the good or bad that allows you to hold on when you think all it is is a hopeless dream not ever going to come. I believe each and every one of us in this world wants to experience a love relationship that of you see in the twilight saga movies. Sometimes love can push one another part or it can bring two people together that were not as closely together but yet not completely apart. But I think before you can get this loovee you have to love YOU first! You have to be able to accept you for you and love every detail, flaw, and impefection about you so you can be happy in love with another person.

Beauty of Friendship

In life you begin to learn who will always stand near through the rough, cracked up patches while being there for the smiles and butterflies also. You learn of the ones who are only good enough to be in your life when they want to be or when times are going good for you but when the times are rough there not in sight.

Life puts you through obstacles to make you witness a lesson and to be able to grow on that lesson. It gives you people that will leave you without even looking back but leaving a lesson for you. There are those people who get so deep inside of you they can screw you completely and utterly up well ending up okay in the end. Lastly, there are those who come in from day one who love you unconditionally no matter what happens in your life and are always a guiding light.

The real people in your life, that make you realize the things you are too stubborn to see are the ones who matter most. The ones who believe in you, cry with you, understand you, are happy with you, and are completely there even if your in the wrong are the ones who give you a really good sense of direction. The ones who are always in your life are sometimes taken for granted and you end up standing around waiting for the ones who are no where in near sight.

Those people who believe in you, when you think all else is failing and they see a light of hope that you yourself don't see is when you have been given something unexpected at the right time. Even though at the wrong time it doesn't seem to make much sense as to why certain people walk in well others walk out or why the ones who have always been there step inside a little harder to give a deeper sense of help. Its those who give a little deeper when you would least expect them to offer more than they have already offered you in your friendship of life. It is those who are willing to chase something not openly unfolded completely to experiment with the inner mess otherwise never really been touched by them previously other than a surface layer.

It's the true beauty of friendships which stand along the edge with you that count the most. So treasure them and don't push them away because sometimes you don't get that second chance to claim what you had back.

signed,

BRIGHTLIGHTS ♥

LAUGHTER = PRICELESS!

So today was the grand day that I decided to wear some eye catching leopard print leggings that had been just sitting amongst my other pair of leggings. Of course I have worn my other leggings amounts of times since there all black with different design styles as the only difference. You wouldn't think people would have the darnest facial expressions when they see the way your dressed, but oh booy was I in for a good laugh! I just found it unbelievable at how many people literally stopped from walking or driving and looked so astonished at my leggings. For me it wasn't "what are peoples problems" it was more so uncontrollable laughter piling inside of me and as I type this it makes me laugh.

I think if your able to laugh at situations of yourself and not let negativity attract the happiness inside of you, the happiness inside of you will spring out onto the outside. Once that shines onto the outside your bound to give that energy off onto someone else.

Sometimes in life you have to take risks whether be it big or small, you have to allow yourself to be challenged. For me wearing eccentric things like I did today has been a challenge for me in the past because I never thought I could pull it off. I just found by me taking the risk today it opened up a bubbly happy person on the outside. I think if you want to try something new and different go ahead, its not for anyone else its for you!

As for me I'm the one in my family who likes the bright colors, the things that are impossible to get where I live, and the who has an uncontrollable laughter that I can't help, but laugh at things at times instead of taking it seriously to the heart when really it can be made into something to laugh about. LAUGHTER = a good best friend in life.

I just think you got to do you and if people don't like it, oh well that's their problem not yours, your problem is the point of making yourself happy and if you do that the negative things and people don't matter.

signed,
BRIGHTLIGHTS ♥